So I guess this is goodbye darling ?

You'll never be with me again.

You'll come up with a million excuses.

Each one kills me more than the last.

I can't handle this anymore.

I don't ever want to lose you.

If I have to wait three years just to be yours again ,
I'll wait <3 just for you :)

I love you so much ,
But everyone says I must be strong.
I don't want to be strong if it means being without you.

-this kills me. there's not enough tears or words to make anyone understand.

I'd rather be with you.

so you love her.
more than you've ever loved anyone.
you want to marry her.
you want to be with her forever.
you'd die for her.

but you aren't with her.

can you find the logic darling ?
because I can't seem to ..

just because you're scared she'll leave ,
doesn't mean you shouldn't take a chance.

wouldn't you rather be with someone and afraid to lose them ,
than to never be with them again at all ?


-<3

On my own tonight.

I wish I was anyone but me.

Inside I start to fall apart.


I can't stand this. It's gotten better ?
I hate that because I know it won't stay that way.

In my mind right now , there's this hope..
That you'll come back to me.
But once reality sets in ,
I'll be a total wreck.

From all my thoughts of a forever with you ,
To all our past memories -
I'll always want to be with you.

I just want another chance.
I don't deserve it ,
But I still need it <3.

Nothing but skin and bones.

When she wakes up in the morning ,

knowing she has no right to
when she doesn't even know what shes doing anymore..
she finds it hard to go on.

her time is spent focused on breathing.
her existence seems to suffocate her lungs.
everything she ever believed in , turned out to be a mirage.
her imagination never fails to get the best of her.
it's always been that way.
she just wants it to all go away.

in desperate need of a way out ,
she doesn't even care where to -
she just wants to get there and quick <3.

people don't seem to be what she thought they were.
liars. fakes.

and they wonder why I'm such a nonbeliever.

i may be the one to blame on occasions ,
but for the most part - keep your fingers pointed at yourself.