I was stupid to think I'll ever be okay with this ..

I had a dream last night.
You were back. As soon as we saw each other , we hugged. We kissed. Then we were in some place and I was hugging you again. I had missed you for so long and I didn't want to let you go ever again. I refused to. But I did. And we walked out of the place to your car. When I got into my seat , the passenger side like always , I slid down in the seat because I was so exhausted. You said to me "you're laying the wrong way" you meant that I was supposed to be laying on you. So I asked "why do you say that" and you answered , "I realized you're the one" that made me so happy to hear that. So I kissed you. I told you that I loved you and you said "I love you too" and I asked "are you sure?" and you said "yes"
Everything I've been hoping to happen , happened
And I was so happy for the first time in the longest time.
And it all felt so real ...
Then I woke up.

And I cried.

All I want is for this dream to come true <3
I've never loved anyone. Not one boy.
Just you.
And to not have you , hurts my heart everyday.