You're kicking me out again ..

What's worse than not being with you ,
Is knowing that if I was with you .. It wouldn't be the same at all.
And I'm not even to blame.
You're the one who's changed.
You say " it wouldn't be the same "
Darling , it's because you're a whole new person now.
Yet I sort of feel ..
That maybe , just maybe ..
If you saw me ,
You'd be who you used to be ?
Can I hope for that or do you believe it's too silly ..
I don't want to say you're different now.
Mainly because I refuse to believe it.
But people change.
All. The. Time.
The whole thing is , I could care less if they all changed.

It's just you.
You that I want to stay the same forever <3

I want my July back.

Memories kill me ,
Because in the back of my mind ,
From the very beginning ...
I knew they'd only ever be memories.
I knew that were entirely too good to be a constant occasion.

It just all tears at me.
Each day.
Every night.

I refuse to believe.
I refuse.
I refuse.
I REFUSE.

I refuse to believe it'll never be like that again.
But then I wonder ,
Is it just memories I'm holding onto ?
No.
It's not.
I'm still so in love with you.
I always have been.
I still love you , more than I did yesterday.
I always will.

I don't want to let this all go.
And when I look back at it all ,
How we were , how you were .. How much you loved me ....
I just want it all back.
I want you to love me like you used to.
The thing is , you act like you don't love me at all.
Anyone who understands love ,
Knows that once you love someone - you never stop.
But I know you were honest with each "I love you"
So I wonder ..
Are you just hurt ?
I know I hurt you , but you said you moved on.
And you said you didn't want to be with me.
So all signs point to being okay.

You really can't blame me for not understanding everything , when you won't help me to ...